I had an interview today for a position at a local university and I had to prepare a presentation on the value of higher education and how it ties into a program at the university. (As my sister said, call it what it really is: prepare a sales pitch that you would give on behalf of the school.” Right? yup. ) I started out as I do with anything new by researching. I read article after article about what experts call the value of education, and after a few hours of this, it came to mind that what they are really talking about is progress. Progress in one’s career, their earnings, their growth as a person, and laying the groundwork for their future. In a nutshell, higher education provides the momentum for progress to be made.
This discovery then led to different searches. I started googling “progress” and came across a quote from that crazy motivational speaker Tony Robbins. He said “progress equals happiness.” And the more the words sunk in, I believed it. I think of any time in my life whether it’s working on a project for school, for work, or just the state that I am in, and when I sense that progress is being made, no matter how significant (or insignificant) it might seem, I feel relief. Content. Happiness. I may not have completely solved a problem, or finished a project 100%, but I am not stuck. I am no longer stagnant.
Before today’s interview, I could feel the adrenaline in my body. Chest was tight, heart beating fast, and I could barely sit long enough to eat breakfast. It was not a comfortable feeling at all. T was home this morning and he asked me how I was doing and I said to him, I need to work on separating in my mind the difference between the feeling of being “pumped up” and being “anxious.” And as I said it, I thought to myself: progress. Several months ago I was waiting for another interview to start and had the same sensations pulsing through my body. But I was also adding to it a layer of doubt, desperation, insecurity….do I need to add more? While I know I did the best I could at that interview, I also know I wasn’t at my best. Today, despite the physical sensations, my mind was stronger. I was prepared for this interview. Progress?
I will not know the outcome of the interview until next week. And yes getting a job would be a significant sign of progress of living here in Kansas City. But right now, today, at this moment, I am feeling happy from the progress I have made since the start of this blog. 🙂